Karnage

and its just about 29hrs to the exam.

i feel like i could just go sit for it and not give a fuck in the world. my life has been so dull just trying my best to keep reading and remembering and all that fuck shit. DAMN BORING. how did i survived O'levels? i can't remember. i only remembered that, the geography paper fell on my birthday and after the paper, i went to the pet shop and bought a little aquarium set up with whatever money that i've got. i remember just proning on the floor and gazing at the fishes. poor bastards.

i remember that aquarium growing from a little tank to a much larger one with pebbles and gravel at the bottom, aquatic plants that REALLY photosynthesized under the UV light, an electric filter that gave my fishes the fresh water they needed and 2 drift wood that i carefully placed to create like a little tunnel that the fishes could swim through. i feel like, the fishes can have the same amount of fun as kids in a playground.

from just guppies, i had pig-snout turtles, fresh water lobster, fresh-water puffers, catfishes and this thing they call muo gui yu, it looks like a black feather with a white tip on the forehead. i love exotic creatures cos they make my tank look so dangerous and mysterious. i remember buying a scoop of blood wurms and emptying the whole package into the tank.

it was a MASSACRE - for the wurms :(

aiz.

i want a fish tank now too. i want a set up that you can actually grow the grass inside, the filter would be an external one that also pumps dissolved carbon dioxide into the tank (which the plants would use for photosynthesis and then producing oxygen for the fishes). i don't want gravel and pebbles, this time i want Fine BLACK sand at the bottom, i want to buy rocks that i could stack into a geographical rock feature, drift woods, and a plastic bikni doll sun tanning.

mmm.. i've yet to decide on the fishies. i know though, there's gonna be some weird coloured shrimpies and an albino mexican walking fish.

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aiz, i was so frustrated i couldn't play one round of bubble spinner. so annoying.

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buaiz.

dionnie

Fasciculation and Twitches

desires, and aches. a matter of time before i feel your smooth ebony and slender neck. passionately strumming your vessels, a charismatic love song for you. i'd strap you on tight body to body, arch you backwards, close my eyes and unleash my soul. i love you.

dionnie

Running through the monsoooon.

I would if i could and if i could i should.

damn.. these indo girls are thick and asslicious. but u can have them. kthxbai.

Spindle fibres & Golgi tendons

sometimes i get lost, unsure of this drive. in the darkness, you can't find your way, you can't feel your limbs. my shadow is at its mightiest most powerful and most lethal. enough to engulf the world and perish it with his power.

now i live in this shadow.

like being trapped in a glass jar, except without the echos.

and the days go on and on and on, and the time ticks slower and slower and slower.

i think about the hows, the whys, the whos, the whens and the whats.

perhaps i think too much.

when would the sun rise again? shatter this jar and free my heart.

in my pocket, a vial of potent love serum, so strong and mighty, just one sip and i shall be freed from my shackles. freedom at last. ashes to ashes, dust to dust.

"its the fear that we have to abuse, not  the heart that we confuse"

dionnie

Look what i got Myself into AGAIN

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dionnie

the 666th tweet

dionnie der devil
666

Something about girls with slightly bigger striped (light coloured) shirts and skinny jeans with flats. mmm.



dionnie

Googie Eyed Snuggie Pillows

i love the feeling when you wake up in the morning, and you really just roll around in bed and not do anything at all! i love the scent of my pillows and the warmth that had built up through the night. furthermore, i've set my thermostat to about 24deg, so it gets a little chilly - enough to keep me in bed, but yet comfortable temperature.

953am tsk.

monuments and melodies by incubus just played on my itunes, and aiz loving the mood its generating. i'm thinking if i should pack my room a little bit, or just head down to the bux and start early with studying. aiz. but by the time i get out of bed, i think the latter would be a better idea.

tee hee.

dionnie

History X

i was going through me old posts just now. it kinda is like re-living the days, but then without the emotions attached. in many ways, i'm done with those days and i think i've moved on significantly. its good to stay in this positivity, or rather, this new genre of Blues. i realise how i might not be able to live the kind of simplicity that i've always talked, blogged or dreamed about. i'm too complex a soul to be uncomplex. perhaps in time to come, reality would erode the layers built over me, and expose a fragile, sensitive and blanched me.

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i really dun understand why photo bucket cannot accept the photos as it is when i upload them! so like, there are some shots where u take potrait format. when i upload them into the computer, naturally i would rotate them in the right order, BUT when i upload them onto photobucket, the fucking photos are still in potrait. like wtf really. why issit that i've got to go through this trouble again?! and furthermore, did u know that i cannot replace the original copy after i editted, some fucking problem with this company. bollocks. i mean, i wouldn't be so heated if the internet connection was like Singapore's. un-fucking-fortunately not.

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so yeah, i will put up photos later on.

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i love indonesian chinese girl's asses. so nice and round.

ok NITES

dionnie

Kommunication

i realised part of being lonely is due to the lack of decent conversations. so far, the best conversations that i had was with my previous english teacher and dean of monash uni foundation year, whom i've just had dinner with. and it occured to me, that the two nights that i was out with them, were one of the few enjoyable and simple nights that i had this year. i haven't had a decent conversation with a malaysian, and i think thats pretty whacked. for a country thats so diversified and cultural, one would expect at least a conversation of substance. i dunno, maybe its because i've been hanging out with kids that i suppose, they're not into that phase of their lives yet.

aiz.

i brought Margaret to the Apartment in Suria, KLCC. from the website, it seemed so impressive, described with such a kaleidoscope of colours. it didn't turned out as impressive as i had anticipated. furthermore, food was the usual, nothing spectacular. i would say Delicious OWNED it. like, i would go back to delicious ANYTIME.

thankfully, the company was awesome enough to overshadow everything else.

see them here

dionnie

Download 2009 - Slipknot Set

this has been the best live performance i've seen by far.


before i forget

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duality.

man, hear the crowd SCREAM for DUALITY. its fucking insane! i would CUM on stage if i wuz Corey!


dionnie

Catch me if u can!

Yay, featured on the local papers.

READ HERE


dionnie

I AM LAUGHING MY ASS OFF

HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA

HE'S THE UGLY FUGLIEST LOOKING CREATURE ON THIS EARTH!

HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA

omg, i shouldn't laugh at people's misfortune.

but too bad you're anatomically WRONG, buddy. you're ugly fugly!

dionnie

Reduced to Scrap Metal

i search deep into pockets, compartments of bags for the cold touch of metal on my fingers. i managed to survive for the past 3 months, with about a 1000rm - including house rent, starbucks and meals. i think thats pretty ok, but it definitely came with a price.

i'm eating 1meal per day, which means a decrease in folic acid levels which are essential for brain function and if i'm not wrong, sperm quality. natural contraception? hahaha. oh wells, i should go for a health check up at the end of the year to see how it has deteriorated over the year. such irony to being a medical student.

called up my dad and told him that i needed some allowance to tie over the remaining of the semester. money is tight.

i'm thinking now if i should get a job when i go back as a medical assistant in clinics. but then, being a medical student means that i wouldn't get paid, or rather, i get paid in experience and knowledge. so i'm not sure how that works out. i miss my previous job where i scored like $22 per hour, it tied me over for at least a year. but thats pretty hard to find these days. got to start researching and planning. mmz.

its only gonna be 4 years that i can start earning my own dough. i can't wait for that. you know the feeling of being self sufficient? its a good feeling, especially for people my age. its quite shizzles that i'm in my prime and i'm not out there in society fighting.

its only now that i realise why people complain about having to serve national service. i mean, makes you damn old and delays your 'supposed' age-related activities abit. but perhaps its really the perceptions of ones own mind. such phases of life are pre-set by progression of society right, or genetically programmed.

aiz.

i guess, have to revert back to optometry if need be.

dionnie

Temple of Science

from very casual observations i can confidently advise this.

Steps to significantly severe your popularity in medical skool (because majority are followers of GOD):

1. Preach EVOLUTION and provide facts that have no proper or reliable references, or no references at all

2. Be in-the-face and criticise how religion has no scientific evidence

3. Talk like you think you know everything

4. Tell christian colleagues that GOD does not save a dying person, but Doctors do

5. Criticise every statement about GOD

6. Update facebook status to "GOD is the mnemonic for Gastro-Oesophageal Disease "

7. Annoy christian colleagues

8. Prophecise that the bible is really the ANATOMY textbook

9. Put your hands in the air like you just don't care

10. Scrape dead skin on to colleague and remind them that CELLS created all living things

11. Preach to all that the basis of life is C (carbon), H (hydrogen) and O (oxygen) not G, O and D

12. Attend colleagues' church functions and distribute DRUGS

13. Use a stethoscope and try to listen for a heartbeat on a statue of Jesus

14. Say "Jesus / Hesus is like Panadol / Paracetamol"

15. Shine light from ophthalmoscope into the eyes of fellow colleague and say "THIS IS THE AURA OF SCIENCE - Divine and Pure"

16. Make statements like "Science led to the development of Condoms"

17. Accuse GOD of being a murderer. "WHY did he allow things like cancer, bacteria, virus and mosquitoes?!"

18. While looking at pictures of congenital birth defects, let out a LOUD sigh and say in a frustrated tone "you claim to be the creator of life! its all your fault!" or sarcastically "oops, a blooper"

19. Include topics such as how followers of GOD and members of church had hurt scientists and tried to destroy science in conversations

20. Try to seduce colleagues in every possible way

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no pun intended.


dionnie

bored.

so bored. so bored. so bored.

i get bored.

i am still pretty set about doing something extreme and life changing. like the same feeling that i was blogging about since the last time. probably because i haven't done it, thus the feeling lingers as an allostatic load in the crevices in my brain. i don't know, but probably the best and easiest thing to have done right now is an eye brow piercing ( i might've mentioned this before). the only thing thats holding me back really is the practical exams next month where i have to see patients. i'm not sure if having an eye brow piercing would affect my grades. medical school is still conservative. maybe its just malaysia.

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i was doing my research on spinal bifida. basically it occurs when the neural tube of the embryo (first 28 days after fertilisation) does not close properly. the neural tube gives rise to the spinal cord and the vertebral column. so what happens is, because the lack of closure, the vertebral is unable to fuse and remains open later. in such instances, the spinal cord may protrude out through the portion thats left open.

this is an example of a baby with spinal bifida. its a congenital birth defect, meaning the baby comes out of the pussy like that. there are several complications, one of it being sexual function and sensation in adulthood. so sianz. but it also really depend on which level of the spinal cord is affected. commonly, its around the lumbrosacral region meaning the area just above your ass. the never roots that come out from the spinal cord in this region innervates mostly your lower limbs and structures at the pelvis. 

one of the ways to reduce this from happening is to have a good amount of folic acid before pregnancy. especially in present day society where pregnancies are spontaneous and unplanned, having folic acid in our diet everyday can help prevent spinal bifida in the event that you suddenly get pregnant. you can get folic acid from breads, pastas, leafy vegetables, citrus fruits. not only does it work for females, but it helps in sperm health too. extra fertile.

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i am quite tempted to head down to mid-valley. feel like changing my location for abit. i'm here at sunway pyramid almost everyday of the week, sitting on the same spot, looking at the same people. i mean, i'm tired? besides, the quality of girls coming here is so BAD. the indonesian girls that come to malaysia to study are like the ones with genetic mutations or something. wtf right? in general, indonesian chinese girls have quite the looks!

kor and me came up with a new term for ugly peeps. we termed them as the ugly fuglies.

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today's deepavali. no wonder its so fucking sunny and scorching out there.

i remember how during field camp training in basic military training, the sergeants would warn us not to celebrate deepavali at night - meaning to not openly on our torch lights and flash them everywhere or parade with them.

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i'm taking a break now. forgot to bring my earphones, now i cant listen to music. aiz.

dionnie

Umm..

i found this really hilarious when i read it the first time. i mean, i'm not dissing or anything, but its just i guess i'm plagued with a dirty mind. what would the lord use her for anyways?

dionnie

decipher this urselves.

Dion Koh		# 770
Male		20-24

Finish Time 05:27:56 HH : MM : SS Pos: 3602 Gen Pos: 2721 Cat Pos: 146

Net Time 05:26:41 HH : MM : SS Pos: Gen Pos: Cat Pos:

Splits

Split	Time from Start	Time From Prev Leg	Time of Day	Pos	Cat Pos	Gen Pos	Dist Done	Dist To Go	Pace
10k	01:07:07	01:07:07	08:07:07	3013	128	2338	10.5	31.7	9.4
21k	02:10:17	01:03:09	09:10:17	3277	139	2559	21.1	21.1	10.0
Second Half	05:27:56	03:17:39	12:27:56				42.2	0	6.4