so anyways, about skool...

i mean, i am finally feeling the feeling of what its like picking up the book after 3half years of pure nothingness. well, a perfect example would be:

during maths class
teacher:"can anyone tell me what the value of pie is?"
my mind:"errr... errr... oh.. pie.. OH MY GOD U FORGOT?!"
teacher:"anyone? at all?"
my mind:"U REALLY FORGOT SIA.. LOSER."

and yes, picking up my biology notes and skimming through my chemistry notes left me at blank. i guess, my engine's not even started. and u know, every morning i have such difficulty waking up, i believe i still wake up thinking its a holiday. so now really, if u ask me what i want in life and what i look forward to, i would say," my freedom and carefree days once again". then u would ask,"what if u ran out of money?" and i would say,"well its written in my karma that i would strike the jackpot in various lotteries, i just dunno when." u would reply,"thats pathetic, cos u dun have a direction, worthless, penniless, waste of space and oxygen." and i would say,"no, because buddha says, u need to live in simplicity, ur mind and body as one, further more, i'm enlightening my soul and cleansing the dirt on it." cheers to buddha and his philosophies in tackling life issues.

wells, i definitely have to pick up the pace again.


did i mention 65% of the students in my school are from hongkong. its a phucking market balls. a raging moshpit of unrefined intellects that possess general-purpose machine gun type designed mouths that fires lethal speech like bullets at an ultimate cyclic rate of 10000X rpm(rounds per minute) - no regards to the sound barrier, armed with dangerous and forceful type swinging action bags able to path a way easily through a jungle of people bearing tactical army type code names like venus and shadow and queenzy. i'm trying to seek patience and inner peace everyday.

wells.. i guess not all of them are as bad.

my math teacher ms shum is a killer. :S



eck.. tomorrow another day. another battle. another fight for inner peace.



dionnie
ps: save urselfs

I started skool today.

fuck that.




dionnie

does it hurt
sailing across the oceans of time
braving winds and storms
is it worth every nickel and dime

nobody ever waits for you

only time will tell
how beautiful it had been and will be
in time how fate decides
only time will tell

i believe
and i listen to the calm of the ocean
i sing a song and let the wind take it to your ears
my heart is strong.

it has faith waiting for u

only time will tell
how beautiful it had been and will be
in time how fate decides
only time will tell

blood sheds through the days
wind chills through my veins
a neverending love story i potray
just for u and only u

whereever u decide to go
i'll guide u along
one love
forever

to u.

and just u

sincerely me.

does it hurt
sailing across the oceans of time
braving winds and storms
is it worth every nickel and dime

nobody ever waits for you

only time will tell
how beautiful it had been and will be
in time how fate decides
only time will tell

i believe
and i listen to the calm of the ocean
i sing a song and let the wind take it to your ears
my heart is strong.

it has faith waiting for u

only time will tell
how beautiful it had been and will be
in time how fate decides
only time will tell

blood sheds through the days
wind chills through my veins
a neverending love story i potray
just for u and only u

whereever u decide to go
i'll guide u along
one love
forever

to u.

and just u

sincerely me.

eh amigos/

for the past couple of days, i've probably watched about 15episodes of the O ,C season 2. i've called up almost every real estate agent in this town, and they put me on the waiting list. so probably tomorrow or the day after next, i'd just call up to check on the status of the apartments. hopefully i get a good pad for myself.

i really have to tell you that i'm so intrigued by the melodrama of the OC season 2. maybe that makes me very housewifey? anyways, theres this girl called Alex, whom i think is super hot. the next there is to angelina jolie. the way her eyes gaze, it has that magnetic seduction feel. seriously a great show. i feel so connected to california, and i'm thinking if i should move there. can u hear it ringing in ur head? de ne ne ne ne, de ne ne ne ne.. california.. here we coooommmeeee.... ooh...

i'm having lots of this energy coming from somewhere i dunno. but i just feel like learning lots of stuff. 1stly, i wanna learn italian, or spanish. 2ndly, i wanna attend cooking classes. 3rdly, i wanna get myself a skateboard, and skate about the neighbourhood. 4thly, i wanna pick up photography classes - wanna start my own coffee table books. 5thly, i wanna learn to play the piano. sexly, i wanna learn the drug trade. ;). hahaha.. pretty ambitious for a start? think i'm heading the right way?

haven't been fucking able to take pictures and shit because the internet connection speed is only 56k now. it takes longer than a whale to swim 1000miles. well, its like that, i think sean's connection is like limited to say, 200 hours or something. then after that, the high speed connection cuts off, and it becomes 56k until the end of the month. sighz. so its pretty hard to get anything done. but oh wells.

i know that soon after i get my own apartment, i'm definitely gonna get an electric guitar and amp, and finally put my new multi-effects pedals to good use. its gonna be lovely. jam my life away, turn into a damn hippe. play sic music on swanston street for people who really dun give a shit. and enjoy the pennies and cents thrown into my guitar case. how radical and awesome is that. not forgetting, i have to invest in a really stained and worn out jeans, and some old KISS t-shirt that probs, survived a moshpit.

i was checkin out some concerts, Jan 28th is Australia's Big Day Out concert which i really wanted to go. but the tickets are all sold out. unless of course, thru ebay, which are selling at double the price. fuckers. this year, muse, the killers are some of the bands that are performing. how awesome is that shit. and i definitely hope to go to a killers concert. and also if incubus pops by.. its a sure go.

i'm actually getting quite used to dining alone and stuff over here. makes ur mind open up to the world around u. cos u just tend to notice ur surroundings more. but i definitely miss my meals with jj. having to eat with her and all is great. hope destiny brings her to aussie with me. that'll be a dream come true and a wish, and a need.

i am bothered.


dionnie.

ps: define ur tagline. i'm not feeling good vibes

hola.

i finally started my bank account today. went up to taylors to pay me remaining half of the school fees as well. life here is definitely much slower than it is in singapore. i mean. in singapore, its like when people go out, they have a purpose. they know what they wanna do. in fact, everyone goes out. in melbourne, its like, they go out, find a nice place to sit for a cuppa and chills. well, i'm kinda adjusting to this because, i feel like i've got things to do, but yet i'm not doing it, and i keep thinking of things to do but really, nothing comes to mind.

in the afternoon, i was home calling up some realestate agents. their really fucking busy people. half the time u call them, their voice mail answers. man... there are some quite nice apartments around and i really find it hard to choose. i guess i have to go for the inspection, then maybe it'll seem easier to choose. currently, i'm quite fond of one just a little down the street from where i am now. but i'm just worried the distance to school.. i may get a lil lazy as time goes on, but heck. i can treat it as an exercise... i hope classes dun start at 8... that'll be a problem.

then at about 7, i hit the streets again. popped over to yoyogi's along swanston for some japanese curry. i miss that alot. but the curry here aint so nice. i met matt. he's from brisbane and we just started talking and eating at the same time. hah.. its really funny, but its great. he was telling me about box hill, just outside melbourne city. maybe might head down sometime when i have the time.

after dinner, i began my walking tour yet again. i walked east side of melbourne this time. i mean, when there's nothing to do, i think exercising and burning off what i just ate is appropriate. found some really cool shops selling limited edition stuff etc. and also, i toured china town, again walking the back alleys. here are my street captures once again


view from the apartment balcony
the city skyline
some random stools, but really inviting

till late
chinatown

odd architecture in the middle of the city
will be checking this out soon

reminds me of a pic i took in spain
urban jungle

first service was in 1838

i seem to always take photos of LV boutiques
yet to try

be realistic, demand the impossible

anyhows, i was rather intrigued by the topic of naturalism. in other words, why people love being exhibitionists, why they like to be naked. it seems that caucasians can take this better than alot of asians as are more conservative people. maybe also because of traditions, cultures and hearsays from the past, the mindset just flows in our blood still. although i must say that, certain asian countries, especially bangkok, where sex is just as normal as living on the streets. (which actually brings to my mind another topic - asian men are more desperate to the topic of sex than caucasian men. boobs, big or small, the eyes of the asian men will pry open the blouse with the stare. and it happens so common, and its quite obvious. i enjoy woman, and i enjoy the visuals that they provide everywhere. but why are asian men more inclined to staring at boobs as compared to caucasian? could it be the open-mindedness of the culture?).

nude beaches began in europe. in fact, till date, france has the no.1 nude beach in the world - Montalivet. here are the ranking of nude beaches in the world.

10) Little beach - Hawaii

9) Red, White and Blue beach - California

8) Haulover beach - Florida

7) Red beach - Greece

6) Praia do Pinho - Brazil

5) Hedonism II - Jamaica <-- seriously, a good name

4) Samurai beach - Australia

3) Wreck beach - British Columbia

2) Ohios Rios, Jamaica

1) Montalivet, France.

anyways, here are some tips:

Starting Going Nude Around the house:
Skinny-dip in your own pool or spa:
If you live with others, they may find it a little odd if you just go naked around the house. However, they may be very understanding if you go in the water without a bathing suit. There's a right time and place for most things, and water is one of the most appropriate for nudity. You'll love it that way, and others who may be around will have a chance to get used to a little innocent nudity.
Do housecleaning or other chores in the nude:
Are there some unwelcome chores you'd prefer to avoid but can't? Try doing them without any clothes on and see if it isn't a lot more pleasant that way. (Hopefully, if it's something that has to be done outside, you have some privacy where you live.)
Gradually become more comfortable with your clothes off:
If you live with others, be sure to respect their feelings. However, once they find out you like to be naked, they may not have any problem with it, even if they don't choose to go along. Soon "no clothes" will come to seem normal, just another way you may choose to be at times.

and safety tips:

Is naturism safe for children and kids?
It is clear that being dressed has not kept children safe. The best thing we can do is teach our children the confidence to speak up when people do things which make them uncomfortable. If they are not ashamed of their bodies, they are much more likely to tell their parents when someone does things to them that they don't like. Whether nude or clothed, children should know that being touched in certain ways is wrong. Although good parenting is by far the most important factor in raising children, naturism helps to promote their confidence and understanding about their bodies.

Don't children get confused as to when and where they can be nude?

Everyone has to teach children when and where it is acceptable to be nude. Naturists simply have more places where it is acceptable. Unlike non-naturists, we don't teach our children that nudity is wrong. We teach them that some people aren't comfortable with nudity and that sometimes we need to dress for practical reasons (e.g. weather).


i can't seem to conclude anything as yet, but its enjoying i guess to be lost amidst throngs of nude people.


dionnie

hey oh~ this is what i say oh~

spent my time walking around the streets of melbourne city today. i wandered off into the little alleys and walked around the backlane. i really wished i had a nikon d40 with me. man, so many nice pictures to take. oh wells.

gonna chills now.

dionnie

today is yet another wet day in melbourne. the weather was so oppressive and bleak, it was just dreadful to be out. anyhows, me and sean went out for breakfast at about 12noon. we headed to Ying Thai 2 along lygon street. he was craving for some thai food. i leave the decisions to him, because anyway, i've just got to melbourne and i dun really know the places around.

lygon street runs parallel to swanston behind sean's apartment. i like the convenience. a huge variety of cafes, serving different types of cuisine(mainly italian), line up the whole length of the street. in between there are some great shops, fcuk etc. lygon street is filled with italian immigrants in the old times of ol'melbourne. their community grew up here, and thus, it still remains as italian as it was before. according to sean, there are mafias and shoot ups at lygon occassionally. he was telling me a story about how this guy got shot in the head in one of the cafes once. pretty neat, reminded me of my godfather psp game.

interesting decor

so the thai food was great. i had omelete minced meat rice, while sean had (another of my fave) mince beef fried in basil leaves with rice and additional egg. yummies! the chef fried the omelette with chai por, which makes it even more tastier. great lunch.

we headed down to brunetti's which is also along lygon. sean had to study for his upcoming exams. and since it started drizzling, i decided to just follow him. i brought along my little blue note book to organise my time and plan what i needed to do urgently. so it was alrite.

brunetti's

my cuppa of hot chocolato

sean and zack

anyways, yet another day in melbourne. time seems to be flying really fast. maybe because i'm not used to being 3 hours ahead of singapore. oh wells, i really hope the sun comes up tomorrow. i wanna go to federation square. my sis asked me to help her get an australian open t-shirt.

hope u like the new layout? i was kinda sick of selling ice creams already. heh...

dionnie

What would u call it?

New found Freedom, the rebirth of Me, the out of hell experience?

today, 19th January 2007, i officially moved my ass to melbourne city to begin the next phase of my life - the higher education phase. i can't tell you what i'm feeling because really, i felt so mixed up. Leaving is good yes, no more nagging parents, do what u like, live ur life, but also, i felt abit reluctant because i'm leaving my comfort zone behind, the warmth i need, the food. It felt like it was abit too soon. As my dad sped away towards the airport, i felt my heart sink down. it sank so low that it was resting on my lungs which made me breathless. i was calling up my relatives who weren't able to come see me off and it was really hard to talk. at the same time, i had j in my mind and i suddenly didn't want that warmth to go away. it was difficult to hide it.

had dinner with uncle vincent, auntie cindy and irvin, my parents, j at crystal jade T2. uncle vincent and family wanted to buy me dinner before i go. i had crystal jade twice yesterday. hah..

anyhows, after dinner, we were just standing around row no. 7. auntie hwee hua and uncle eddie and michelle came by to see me off. god ma was on her way. val was there already and a little later david showed up. so was just chitter chattering. and then suddenly more peeps came and everyone was chitter chattering. relatives catching up with each other, me talking to my friends. and in the blink of an eye, i had to go in. and i felt the leaving part was really to quick. like i just wanted to hold j longer. wanted her to walk with me - but yeah it was quite impossible if u had to say good bye to the relatives present.

thru the gate, my lips quivered. it had that unsure feeling. i mean, it was really more painful to leave without j than i expected it would be. i didn't want her to be alone. no matter how strong she is or how much front we put up, i know we definitely need each other the most. in the plane, it was different, i couldn't show my retarded faces to j, couldn't smell her. i mean, the fact that we've been travelling together quite recently made riding on the plane together a comfort zone and something i would always like to have.

am i too emotional, i think not. cos loving a person u can never have enough of passion, love and faith.

melbourne:

when i touched down here, it was pouring. my cabbie driver was a middle eastern from Malta. so it was raining, but he left the front 2 windows down so that there was ventillationa and a cool car breeze. but it was raining? man.. so we chitter chatter abit, ask me what i'm doing here and shit. and i asked him where he's from and stuff. then along swanston street, this cabbie infront of us smashed straight into the car infront. totally bad ass. the bumper was all fucked. so much for analing.

a pretty odd start to a good prospect.

so now, i'm bunking in at christine's and sean's place. they're friendly, though christine is in singapore, she has been helping me arrange who will meet me at her apartment and stuff. so its all good.

tomorrow i'll start my bank account and probably start to scout for my own pad asap.

nothing like living alone in the bitterness of the melbourne weather, but i guess many more years to come. heh...

btw, customs were terrible..

tonight, heading out with Sean to have dinner then probs back to chills.




basically spent my whole day in the apartment looking for another place to live.


anyways.

will update soon.

dion

i just wanna say how happy i felt when the green light was given to go davao with jj! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

i obviously had to hide my emotions, but it feels so fucking great. now at least, both of us can go and enjoy ourselves without having a splinter in the heart.

we must be open minded and willing to accept. we must be patient to conquer. and we must attack with wit and not brute force.

may the dionness be with u. tackle ur parents with ease - lol kidding.

street love

every moment with you.

its just 10 days before i'm leaving for australia. 10 days?! wat the hell. its like i dun know what to do what to say. very mixed emotions, neither excited, neither reluctant. i dun wanna let go of the warmth.

no more tears
hunger pangs
almost got fucking knocked down

but its funny how ur brain reacts to certain things. just like how mine did in this situation. i saw a cab turning, i look in front and i think well, still so far, but the cab accelerated suddenly, and my mind tells me to STOP but in a split second it says GO MOTHER FUCKER GO! so i WALKED quickly. i wanted to run, but the brain didn't generate the signal quick enough to inform my legs. the cab was nearer, and when the signal reaches my legs, i picked up speed and accelerated out of harms way. funny how j just randomly took my picture which, was almost fatal evidence.

030107 - 070107

bangkok thru my eyes

love love long time
always waiting
little nit bits
out of the queer
american boys love

thai boy
appeal
everywhere u go

only in siam
pang pang
exploit

long live the king
brutes
soul-filled

pollution
money brings u everywhere
in need of 3G

land of smiles
compassion
patpong please

where do u cross the road
food frenzie
peaceful journey

new airport
look closely
pride
chills..


specially for the loving couples.

i know, sometimes we get tired and sick of the same ol trick. and we might need new adventures. adventures that bring each other to newer heights and levels. adventures that focus on each others feelings and mental strength. adventures that nurture the togetherness. adventures that promotes healing and physical fitness.

here's a great new suggestion for a new year:)

good luck!

ps: mail ur adventure photos to mosh_pit16@yahoo.com all will be kept private.

dionnie

happy new years.

to all of you, i wish you a really rocking year ahead. hopefully, this year will have more smiles, less arguements, more understanding relationships with the people around you, more dreams fulfilled, more wishes granted, staying alive and healthy, great financial boost.

and most importantly, being happily surrounded with ur loved ones and greatest pals.

as for me, well,

i asked jj what her new year's resolution was. and she told me that, why bother to have a new year's resolution, its something that you'll never ever get down to, and it'll definitely be brought forward to the next year. and it hit me that, there's alot of truth in that. so rather than having new year resolutions, i'm going to list down the few obstacles of my life thats always so hard to tackle, and i will definitely try my utter most best to clear them and never meet them again.

here are the obstacles:

1) fatness - always a disease, always reoccuring. fuck u mom for putting me down so much
2) muddle headedness - i'm always lost among my thoughts, i need to focus more, i need to clear the haze in my brain to see the path ahead, i need to be sharp, and i need to see afar.
3) cowardness - i need to be more aggressive, more thick-skinned, more confident to face the most fearsome shit on earth.
4) oily fingerness - i need to be thrifty and save up for better days.
5) laziness - like cancer and fatness alike, an obstacle that needs to be rid of asap.

these obstacles are harder to tackle than to slaying a dragon. they suck, and they'll be out of my life soon.

i also hope that for this year, singapore's economy will continue to fluorish. 2006 was a great year for the banks, businesses picking up, better investments etc. well, though the increment of GST to help old birds with their medisave shit, i hope the majority will continue to have excellent spending power, splurging on food, fine clothes and great entertainment. more successful investments to the individuals and banks.

i hope new soldiers dun hold a grudge against the nation for wasting their time serving 2 years of national service. military isn't all that bad, do ur job, for ur country, for ur friends, for ur loved ones. stand up proud and valiant. officer or not, standing on the parade square, dressed up to your smartest, butt in chest out, ur loved ones cheering u on from the spectator stands, that pride u feel, is priceless.

i hope singaporeans are more sincere and more willing to help each other. i see fucked up drivers on the street fighting to be ahead, fucked up people self-centered people so bloody stingy and kiasu - u guys are damn bloody lousy drivers too. the no. of cars are increasing rapidly on the singapore roads. an expressway here is not so express afterall. so please, be considerate and there will be lesser traffic hold ups and accidents.

i hope xiaxue distributes her sex videos to the nation.



time has shown her merciless powers once again. she has made known to me that its already the 2nd of jan 2007. i'll be leaving for melbourne this coming 18th jan. i've got plenty of things to rush up before i go. and i really wanna squeeze in one more holiday with jj before i leave. time is essential and crucial.

i'm going to begin school once again... i hope i'll be successful in my studies. i've already listed down the few types of cars i wanna own next time!

well.. time is not something we can turn back. as for where i am standing. i just wanna say, i've been trying to be a good man for the family, for love ones, for friends, for the country. whatever i've done, i've never had bad intentions and i never wanna hurt anybody. sometimes i just do things in a really weird and unpractical manner, but whatever it is, i do it whole heartedly. to my mom,: i dun have much to say, to my dad,: thank u for giving me the chance to study, thank u for always thinking of me even though i never made any of u proud, to my sis,: you've always been the most capable and u're the most important bond in the family, to my grandfather,: u got to get well and stand up again, to my ahma,: yao kai kai xin xin, da mah jiang de shi hou, ying duo duo qian, to my porpor,: bu yao dan xin kong kong, wo men hui zhao gu ni gen kong kong de, ru guo mei tian ke yi enjoy, ni jiu enjoy lor ok.

singh: *salutes to the turban in the cockpit* we fight together, we die together, comprendo? sorrows will be drowned, obstacles will be broken, enemies will be killed, dead or alive, i'll be here man.

valkrye LOKE: as the fortune cookie reads, money is in ur grasp, bring it down from the tree. you'll definitely make it with ur will power balls. have a rocking new year urself

david TANG: drumstix are just the way u tackle the world, show them ur powers and inner most talents, when u become CDF, i want to ride in a guards light strike vehicle, i want to fly all the types of aircraft the AIRFORCE owns, i wanna shoot all the different weapons the SAF own. lol... anyways, u've been the most down to earth and wonderful being. life is easier with a GREAT BUDDY LIKE U.

eleta: u still cant differentiate toot and stoot. hah... with ur kindness and sincerity, u will go to heaven. please help the world be a better place. ur the mother theresa of all time.

rodney: wtf, will be gaying in melbourne. ur nei nei my balls.

api: u need to stop shedding fur. and u need to be more educated in ur toilet ettiquet. ur so damn cute, i squeeze ur little tummy everytime i see u. but really, i've never seen another prrmews as pretty as u are.

and of course,

my love:
from mutt to lover. i love u for every possibility u've shown me, i love u for every mistakes u correct me, i love u for every of ur imperfections. rain or shine, end of world or time, i've never ran away nor left u alone. i finally understand this, loving you is not a feeling, is not a reason, is not to show. loving u is being able to be myself, is the happiness and the anger and the sadness we share, is 2 hearts beating to one same rythm. i wake up every morning craving and needing more of you. i feel that i wanna keep taking great care of u even though i know u're strong enough to stand up. ironically, sometimes over loving someone maybe frustrating, but u know, its something u can never get enough of. be it far or near, now or later, knowing ur place in my heart, the rythm will always be consistant. say what u like, i love u jayzzzzzz..

dd